That's It
Posted on: Friday, May 22, 2009
Posted at: 1:24 AM
5 pills every morning.
driving me nuts.
the worse thing is,
no matter what i swallow,
nothing changes. nothing will change.
the pain still stays.
it never goes, it never leaves me alone.

now everytime i close my eyes
everytime i sleep
i'm haunted
drips
needles
syringes
pills
machines that never stop beeping or making annoying noises
the plug that weakens my hand
the ambulance
they haunt me
they scare me

i'm tired.
tired of pretending that i'm ok.
tired of pretending i don't feel the pain.
tired of telling myself things are going to be ok.
tired of thinking that it will heal.

i fall asleep alone
haunted
and wake up realising
i'm still alone

that's it.
i've given up hope.
no more pills.
just let the pain kill me. now.

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