Perfection
Posted on: Monday, January 28, 2008
Posted at: 2:09 AM
I think I have a phobia of driving already. Ergh! It's annoying how one miserably pathetic experience spoils it all. 

Part of me has given up on my driving, which I'm left one week with. But another part of me wants to show everyone who has said I won't be able to do it in time wrong and go all the way! I don't care if I haven't learnt any parking techniques, I still stall the bloody engine or I almost crash the car! 
I'm going to get my license! 

To my dearest black friend, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 
Have a good one babe. 21 years of life. Enjoy more years to the fullest! With me in it of course, that's for sure! 
Love ya babe! 

7 months
A perfect number!
=)

Deproved
Posted on: Saturday, January 26, 2008
Posted at: 4:08 AM
I don't get it
People are so fickle
They say one thing now
But mean another later

I made my decision
You supported me
I got my answer
You were happy for me

You told me to go
You wanted me to go
I wanted so much to
I was happy you felt that way

Everything's done
Settled
Paid
I can't not go
But why are you asking me if I can not go?
It breaks my heart
Because the answer is obvious
If I could,
I'd turn back time
And make that decision all over again
I'd make a different choice
Even if it means losing this chance of a lifetime

I thought I could leave with a peace of mind
That we'll study hard together
Give things our all
Be strong for each other
But you're feeling differently now
That I don't know what'll happen
when I'm not around
How can I leave with a smile now?

I know we can't bear to leave each other
It saddens us to say goodbye
We'd do everything to spend more time together
Take the buses
Send each other home
It was so fun
That even when it's painful
We say bye with a smile on our faces
What happened to that?
You didn't even say goodbye
You didn't turn back and give a final wave
I sat by the road 
With my heart aching like never before
I'd like to see that smile all over again
Just a smile at the end of the day
That even as we say goodbye
We're thankful for a great day spent with each other
That we had time together
That we had each other
That we're still together as one
I miss that
When can I have that again?

You're getting better at it.
But I don't think I am.


Only One
Posted on: Thursday, January 24, 2008
Posted at: 1:32 AM
Last night, was such a long night. But it was worthwhile spending time with someone I care so much about. 

Parents, are still the weirdest people on Earth. They do things that none of us kids can understand. We can't fully understand their intentions either. Because they ultimately do things with a different motive, for us. 
To us, they're unreasonable and not understanding enough. We don't talk or communicate with them and we say that it's because there's nothing to talk about. We have to wait for our parents to do something 'worthy' for us to tell them what's going on in our lives and our minds. But why can't we take the initiative to get to know them, know what's going on in their lives and their minds? 
We're their children. But that doesn't mean that we deserve their concern for us more than they deserve our concern for them. We don't owe them anything. And we owe what we have today, more or less, directly or indirectly, to them. 
Cherish what you have. Family, we have only one. 

'O' level results out tomorrow! Aren't you people excited? Are you people who are receiving the results nervous and scared? My Brother seems to be getting a long fine and looking forward to it. 
All The Best!!! =)

I love you.
I love doing things for you.
Honesty, is the best policy.

Pride
Posted on: Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Posted at: 12:11 PM
This weekend was complete madness. 
Spent my entire weekend with my family. It's not as draggy as expected. And I'm sure Mum and Dad were happy cos I was with them the whole time. I know they miss hanging out with me. It was only then I realized i missed hanging out with them too. 

Bought quite a lot of stuff to get ready for the big flight. Winter clothes, a new pillow, new Macbook! Hahaha! 
I thank God for giving me a family who cares so much for me. I know it's not easy letting me go all the way to Perth. But my parents don't just pay my fees and let me go. They have the patience going from place to place to get all the stuff that I need. And my adorable Brother is there to carry the stuff for me. 
I know they love me. Very much. I love them too. Thank you!   =)

I took quite some time to get the internet connection going on my new Mac. I was using the home PC, after so long, that I happened to come across something really interesting. Something that reminded me that people change, and people grow. 
I saw my Brother's blog. Filled with inspiration and of course, the holiness. 
His posts all filled with, I can't believe I'm saying this, wisdom. I always thought my Brother was a little on the quiet side, keeping lots of things to himself, therefore, creating a kind of front that hardly anyone can see through. But I guess after seeing his blog, I realize I've been so wrong. 
I would say I'm proud of my Brother. For everything he's done. Big and small. I'm proud of him for keeping his committment to his job, for going to church, for making time for the family, for always offering to carry the stuff for us, for knowing how to save money, for being contented with what he has, for being himself. 
I love my Brother. Very much. 

I love you too. 
You're my Sexy Love, 
I'd go EVERYWHERE with you!  =)

Time
Posted on: Monday, January 14, 2008
Posted at: 1:06 PM
Time seems to pass so fast! I can't believe I'm actually flying off in like 3 - 4 weeks! And Chinese New Year is coming! I haven't decided when I'm going to buy my new clothes and stuff.
Oh my God! So many things to do. I haven't started packing yet and yes, I know, a lot of people are panicking for me. I haven't even settled my hostel yet! I am so dead!

Well, it turns out that I didn't manage to get the single room that I wanted and dreamed of at the Murdoch Village. So I got another offer, a double room. Means I gotta share a room with a total stranger! Freaky shit! Technically, I can choose who I want to share my room with. But as of now, most of my friends already got rooms of their own, their own apartment, or they're already sharing a room with each other or someone else. So I'm all alone.
I don't mind sharing a room as long as my room mate is not anything close to the stories I heard from my friends about their room mates. Oh well, I'm not confident at getting an apartment by myself. C'mon... it's my first time there! So I got no choice. A double room is the way to go for now. Pray for me!

Things are moving so fast. People have all started school. My brother is receiving his O level results soon. Poly open houses are currently going on. It's crazy how the new year has started and so quickly moved on to the middle of January. I just hope my 2 years in Perth will fly by equally fast, with no tears and freaky fears of surviving by myself in between.

And to my closest friend, school starts today! All the best! Heard you got the modules you wanted. Congrats and I'm happy for you! Do your best ok! Good that you're leaving the past behind you and moving on to a better semester. Don't worry, your best friend here will kick your butt if you slack anyhow. LOVES! =)

i'll be your guardian angel...
i'll stand up with you forever.

I Wonder
Posted on: Friday, January 04, 2008
Posted at: 5:37 PM
the world works in mysterious ways
sometimes you wonder
why are things the way they are?
am i able to set the bar?

instead of thinking
i just take things as they are
i have you beside me now, it's clear
so now, i don't have to wonder

i love you...
thanks for sitting beside me