Forever
Posted on: Saturday, April 25, 2009
Posted at: 7:22 PM
today i asked you how long you think we will last.
it prolly came out random and out of nowhere.
but you gave me the assurance, after a while
that we'd last forever.

darling,
í'm going to do all i can to make us last forever.
i love you.

Another 100 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Friday, April 24, 2009
Posted at: 5:16 AM
1. you like to put your pen in our mouth while studying
2. you transferred hong kong movies to khai
3. you fried noodles for me
4. you put too much pepper in the fried noodles
5. you take very long to fry stuff
6. you took water for me while i was eating outside the library
7. you drank mini frozen coke
8. you offered chewing gum to khai, stef and me
9. you always say 'no worries'when being thanked
10. you are generous with your cigarettes
11. you bought me a huge doggy soft toy
12. you tell me you bought it so i can hug it to sleep whenever i miss you
13. you wanted to surprised me
14. you like surprises
15. you wanted to feed the ducks at 2 in the morning
16. you don't mind me staying over at jie's
17. you will dress up for me
18. you will wear dresses knowing i like seeing you in them
19. you got drunk that night
20. you scared me when you got drunk that night
21. you tell me about the conversation you had with your dad
22. you bought a silver cigarette box
23. you are aware that i can't give you kids
24. you asked for our opinion about the length of your fringe
25. you asked me for permission to watch our show on your laptop before you start studying
26. you have a esprit wallet
27. you wore brown with me and it wasn't planned
28. you drew a heart around the 'rachel loves pearl' at the back of your car
29. you wrote 'pearl!'below the 'i love u' i wrote on your hand
30. you wrote 'yay!!' beside the smiley face i drew on your notes
31. you gave my hard drive back to me
32. you wanted to go to church when you were drunk
33. you feed me fries whilei'm driving
34. you rub my knuckles when i punched the notice board
35. you stroke my face for about an hour while i was asleep on your lap
36. you always need me to reverse the car out of my front porch for you
37. you boiled green bean soup
38. you bought sweet potatoes
39. you redeemed yourself when cat said you were on a diet
40. you were on a diet
41. you tell me your friends want to meet me
42. you don't show black face
43. you owe me a dinner
44. you ate the green bean soup that went bad
45. you listened to my dodgy stories
46. you say i'm protective
47. you tell me its ok to be protective as long as i'm careful
48. you bit my neck
49. you let me bite your fingers
50. you always ask me to bite harder on your fingers
51. you let me write 'pearl loves rach' on your cigarettes
52. you don't intend to smoke those cigarettes
53. you say you'd keep quiet when dodgy people find trouble with you
54. you gave me 3 maple leaves
55. you know that 3 stands for 'i love you'
56. you know that i miss you when a plane flies past even when i'm right beside you
57. you commented on the drunk video
58. you said 11x11 is 1 when you were drunk
59. you still claimed you were sober
60. you hit your head on your bed post
61. you walked to the studio to give me water when i had gastric
62. you recommended stef and i to burn charcoal
63. you encouraged our silly suicidal thoughts
64. you took a sip of coffee when we told you to
65. you are going to watch a play with me
66. you are skipping a friend's birthday to watch the play with me
67. you studied for you chinese translation test
68. you borrowed jie's electronic dictionary
69. you were concerned for shayma
70. you ate the pasta i cooked
71. you said it tasted good
72. you were late for class
73. you were so late that class ended when you sat down
74. you are reluctant to not see me for a week
75. you open the car door for me
76. you like purple
77. you like the colour of my hair
78. you stare at insects to make sure they don't come near
79. you wrote 'racheal loves pearl' on your cigarette box
80. you wrote that using liquid paper
81. you listened to 1/4 of my assignment
82. you are fascinated with the MIDI keyboard in the studio
83. you are scared of water
84. you give excuses when your friends ask you out for swimming
85. you will get scared when the water level is at your neck
86. you went to kardi tavern with me
87. you can't dance when you're not high
88. you didn't get high last tuesday
89. you climbed out of the driver's door from the passenger seat
90. you were lazy to open your own door
91. you offer to help me carry stuff
92. you rejected a smoke so that we can leave earlier from the library
93. you ask me why i'm so serious while i'm typing this note
94. you ask me if i'm jealous
95. you ask me why i don't get jealous
96. you don't know if you want me to get jealous
97. you say you don't know what to do if i'm jealous
98. you have yet to change your facebook profile picture
99. you untagged yourself in a photo of you and me
100. you are sweet

i love you darling!
all the best for your test tomorrow! =)

Another 100 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Saturday, April 18, 2009
Posted at: 5:47 AM
1. you laughed while reading my first 100 reasons
2. you apply at least 4 types of cream on your face before you sleep
3. you don't like wearing specs
4. you like my new hair colour
5. you say you don't care how my hair looks like
6. you like to lean on my shoulder
7. you kiss me goodnight
8. you thought my liver hurt when it was my chest
9. you pat my back when i cough
10. you tell me you'd go crazy too when i tell you i'm going crazy
11. you tell me nothing can happen to me
12. you don't like me to mention 'die'
13. you kept my 'urn' under your sink
14. you refuse to let me call that my urn
15. you ate 5 serves of food at the 90s party
16. you stayed over with me at leon's even when you didn't bring your stuff
17. you always ask me if my arm hurts when you lean on it
18. you refuse to sit comfortably on my lap
19. you always say you're heavy when you sit on my lap, WHEN YOU'RE NOT
20. you ask me for song titles whenever i play songs in your car
21. you like 'written in the stars' by westlife
22. you would sit in the car and wait for your favourite songs to finish playing
23. you kiss me after i take my cough medicine
24. you have been eating
25. you refuse to take my money when i'm the one buying something
26. you are so formal with people
27. you always ask before you take my stuff
28. you haven't delete when i ask you to delete from my hard drive
29. you always say my ex should've appreciated me
30. you ask me how i feel after you tell me things
31. you don't like it when i said i'm dying of lung cancer
32. you slept on the floor with me
33. you can sleep for 12 hours
34. you are taking a unit of chinese
35. you say you can read my 'han yu pin yin' that's written so small
36. you would ask me to translate the chinese for you
37. you trust my chinese translation
38. you tell me your shorts are getting loose
39. you laugh at everything and anything
40. you would say you're crazy whenever you laugh
41. you cook porridge for me when i had a fever
42. you wear your specs when i ask you to
43. you took 5 minutes to notice my new hairdo
44. you watched 'one missed call' before
45. you say japanese horror films are confusing
46. you ask me to finish the food you can't finish
47. you won't change the song in your car when you hear me singing to it
48. you listen to my advice
49. you understand when i tell you family comes first
50. you would go to burswood with me even when you weren't in the mood
51. you give jacelyn the impression that you give in to me a lot
52. you DO give in to me a lot
53. you feel i give in to you more
54. you like the fact that i don't get jealous
55. you want me to remain like that and not get jealous
56. you tell me i'm not a bad girlfriend
57. you say you complain a lot to me
58. you ask me if i'd go back to my ex
59. you tell me i've done a lot for you
60. you got a test next week
61. you ask me how is my studying whenever we're in the library
62. you watch korean movies when you can't sleep
63. you think your noticeboard is empty
64. you hang your stuff in your room when your sister's boyfriend comes over
65. you make people think you're dirty-minded
66. you don't hit me
67. you only hit me when you laugh, which is ok
68. you let me spend time alone when i need it
69. you dread your parents coming over during the holidays
70. you let your sister use the car when she tells you in advance
71. you want to kill your sister sometimes
72. you say you can't be yourself when you're in front of your family
73. you keep the fan blowing towards your laptop battery on your table
74. you don't like it when your laptop battery overheats
75. you paid for the food for steamboat during easter
76. you like it when people play the guitar
77. you want me to play the guitar and sing to 'all i wanted' by michelle branch again
78. you love to play with the dogs
79. you beam whenever you see pets
80. you are surprised to hear my housemate has chickens in my backyard
81. you make indo mee for stef as well
82. you wear my grey jacket
83. you rub my arms to keep me warm
84. you say you'd die when i die
85. you tell me you'd cry every day and night if i die
86. you don't respond when i say 'i love you' before i sleep
87. you don't have a pet name for me
88. you always ask if i took all of my stuff when we step out of the car
89. you trust my reverse parking skills
90. you always want to light my cigarettes
91. you warn me you do suffer from pms
92. you play 'just want you to know' by backstreet boys on repeat
93. you have a korean msn nickname
94. you know my man nicknames are for you
95. you eat your toast with jam
96. you cook healthy noodles for me
97. you cook the best food i've ever tasted
98. you are smart
99. you look beautiful with makeup on
100. you are beautiful

100 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Monday, April 13, 2009
Posted at: 6:02 PM
  1. you laugh at me
  2. you respond when i call you 'darling'
  3. you have a sweet smile
  4. you always say you're fat, WHEN YOU'RE NOT!
  5. you will stop saying you're fat when i tell you i'll get angry
  6. you're so skinny
  7. you make indo mee for me
  8. you wanted to buy indo mee from caltex to cook for me while i was at the library
  9. you like to stare at me
  10. you stare at me and i get work done in the library
  11. you let me lie on your lap
  12. you stare at me when i fall asleep on your lap
  13. you like to touch my face
  14. you say the complexion on my face is smooth
  15. you ruffle my hair
  16. you like to stroke my hair while i'm asleep
  17. you feel comfortable with me
  18. you make me feel comfortable with you
  19. you make me laugh
  20. you make me smile
  21. you remind me to take my medicine
  22. you hold me when i'm in pain
  23. you let me drive your car
  24. you trust me with my directions
  25. you tell me to trust myself with my directions
  26. you watched 'phantom of the opera' with me
  27. you smoke marlboro menthol
  28. you let me buy you cigarettes
  29. you buy me cigarettes
  30. you asked stef what cigarettes i smoke
  31. you play ipod in the car
  32. you like the songs i play
  33. you will ask me if i like the song or i want to change a song
  34. you play my favourite song in the car
  35. you are addicted to my favourite song
  36. you don't mind me being short
  37. you don't like someone for their appearance
  38. you have no preference whether i wear glasses or contacts
  39. you think i look cute without my hair spiked up
  40. you fix my bed
  41. you call me 'stitch' when you ruffle my hair
  42. you let me sleep at your place
  43. you sleep at my place
  44. you wear my jacket
  45. you like to hug me
  46. you say hugging me keeps you warm
  47. you tell me you're not cold when i'm around
  48. you hug me tight when i'm cold
  49. you check on me whenever i puke in the toilet
  50. you look after me
  51. you grab songs from my hard drive
  52. you get jealous
  53. you think you're sensitive
  54. you think you're cold blooded
  55. you have cold hands
  56. you have phobia of exams
  57. you are scared of insects
  58. you are afraid of the dark
  59. you sleep with your table lamp on
  60. you wore pink with me
  61. you take at least half an hour to shower
  62. you take another half hour to get ready for bed
  63. you have long wavy hair
  64. you want to have bigger curls on your hair
  65. you are doing accounting
  66. you hate tax
  67. you make sure my head is on a pillow when i lie on my bed
  68. you say i'm sweet
  69. you say i'm nice
  70. you tell me i treat you well
  71. you say i'm better than your ex-es
  72. you don't get mad when i mention my ex
  73. you always assure me you won't beat me up
  74. you know i like to drink water with ice
  75. you remember that i drink my drinks with 2 straws
  76. you make me feel happy when you eat
  77. you offer to peel prawns for me
  78. you scoop food for me during dinner with our friends
  79. you make sure i'm covered by the blanket when i sleep
  80. you didn't mind when i said to take things slow
  81. you feed me fries while i drive
  82. you buy me frozen coke
  83. you remind me to throw away my expired milk in the fridge
  84. you trust me with your car
  85. you like songs by westlife
  86. you like korean and japanese songs
  87. you always watch movies starring stephen chow
  88. you understand mandarin
  89. you can't write mandarin very well
  90. you deserve the best
  91. you make me want to be the best for you
  92. you chose the color for my macbook when i highlight words on it
  93. you have a picture of you and me on your laptop and phone
  94. you don't know how to pump petrol into your car
  95. you heart aches seeing me in pain
  96. you hold my hand
  97. you like it when i hold your hand while driving
  98. you let me be myself
  99. you chose me
  100. you make me the luckiest girl in the universe
i love you darling.

Official
Posted on: Monday, April 06, 2009
Posted at: 5:40 AM
it's official.

1/4/2009

Fine
Posted on: Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Posted at: 4:56 AM
you all will be fine without me.
you will be fine without me.

Still Here
Posted on:
Posted at: 2:38 AM
I'm proud of you for doing what you had to do.
you must know.
it sucks that i want to be around, but i can't, because i shouldn't.

but i'm still here...