Still a fool
Posted on: Monday, December 18, 2006
Posted at: 12:18 AM
Posted at: 12:18 AM
I had to pull myself out of bed reluctantly today. I know it was 12 plus in the noon but hey, I only had 1 hour of sleep the previous night! But Mummy woke me to go out for lunch followed by shopping. And I haven't exactly finished my Christmas shopping so shopping was something I needed to do as soon as possible.
We went out for lunch at Jacks' Place at Bras Basah Complex. Quite an oo-lu place. I only normally go there to only either print projects or buy stationery from the Popular Book store there which happens to be the biggest in Singapore. So we had a great lunch.
It felt really good to finally get to spend time with my Brother and my parents. I then realized how long I haven't done that. It was really fun that Lewis was constantly making me laugh. And it's amazing how close we have gotten when we used to get on each others' nerves when we were younger. It feels good to feel protected by someone. And my younger brother does just that. Constantly looking out for me. Sometimes I wonder if he was the elder. Haha!
We talked a lot during lunch. Finally updated each other on what's been happening around us. I was telling them all the stories about work and the 987 Control gang. And Mummy would like to meet them someday. So hmmm.... I gotta plan a day when everyone can come to my house for like a gathering or something. That'll be fun!
We headed to town. Daddy dropped us off at Taka. Mummy went shoping on her own while Lewis follwed me to shop for my other presents. Bought tonnes of stuff (means spending tonnes of my savings). Lucky Lewis was around to help me drag those huge bags around. Mummy was constantly looking at bags. She can buy one bag every week! and this week, she was looking at Agnes B stuff! I was telling her what expensive taste she has. And she scolded me that I didn't tell her sooner that I have a friend working there and could get the stuff at half price. That means Felicia, I can use that 50% staff discount! Haha! Would appreciate as Mummy had her eyes on it for like ever!
Spent the whole day shopping and then went off for dinner! I had a lil' gastric attack that almost killed me but after dinner at Great World City, it felt all better. Walked around for a lil' while before heading to Heartland Mall. Bought more stuff before heading home.
Came home and darling Aunty was helping me wrap presents as I can't wrap any to save my life. She did a great job. What will I do without her? Haha. Thanks a lot Aunty! Love you to bits!
Mummy got me 2 journals from Paper People today as my Christmas presents. I love them! And I've been dying to write for ages. Now I finally can! I blog but that doesn't mean I can write everything here. Everyone have secrets. So do I. And my journal is where it'll be.
I wanna say that no matter what I do, I do things for others. If you look at how I am and how my life has been, you'll easily see that I put myself last all the time. That's the truth. But that doesn't mean I don't love myself. Whenever someone says I don't care, I feel hurt, really hurt. It makes me wonder why I've been doing so much and what's this all about. I do so much and all for what? I don't know really. It just feels good to me. Is that a crime?
This is so unbelievable. I blame myself for everything now. Looks like I'm still the biggest fool there ever is.
We went out for lunch at Jacks' Place at Bras Basah Complex. Quite an oo-lu place. I only normally go there to only either print projects or buy stationery from the Popular Book store there which happens to be the biggest in Singapore. So we had a great lunch.
It felt really good to finally get to spend time with my Brother and my parents. I then realized how long I haven't done that. It was really fun that Lewis was constantly making me laugh. And it's amazing how close we have gotten when we used to get on each others' nerves when we were younger. It feels good to feel protected by someone. And my younger brother does just that. Constantly looking out for me. Sometimes I wonder if he was the elder. Haha!
We talked a lot during lunch. Finally updated each other on what's been happening around us. I was telling them all the stories about work and the 987 Control gang. And Mummy would like to meet them someday. So hmmm.... I gotta plan a day when everyone can come to my house for like a gathering or something. That'll be fun!
We headed to town. Daddy dropped us off at Taka. Mummy went shoping on her own while Lewis follwed me to shop for my other presents. Bought tonnes of stuff (means spending tonnes of my savings). Lucky Lewis was around to help me drag those huge bags around. Mummy was constantly looking at bags. She can buy one bag every week! and this week, she was looking at Agnes B stuff! I was telling her what expensive taste she has. And she scolded me that I didn't tell her sooner that I have a friend working there and could get the stuff at half price. That means Felicia, I can use that 50% staff discount! Haha! Would appreciate as Mummy had her eyes on it for like ever!
Spent the whole day shopping and then went off for dinner! I had a lil' gastric attack that almost killed me but after dinner at Great World City, it felt all better. Walked around for a lil' while before heading to Heartland Mall. Bought more stuff before heading home.
Came home and darling Aunty was helping me wrap presents as I can't wrap any to save my life. She did a great job. What will I do without her? Haha. Thanks a lot Aunty! Love you to bits!
Mummy got me 2 journals from Paper People today as my Christmas presents. I love them! And I've been dying to write for ages. Now I finally can! I blog but that doesn't mean I can write everything here. Everyone have secrets. So do I. And my journal is where it'll be.
I wanna say that no matter what I do, I do things for others. If you look at how I am and how my life has been, you'll easily see that I put myself last all the time. That's the truth. But that doesn't mean I don't love myself. Whenever someone says I don't care, I feel hurt, really hurt. It makes me wonder why I've been doing so much and what's this all about. I do so much and all for what? I don't know really. It just feels good to me. Is that a crime?
This is so unbelievable. I blame myself for everything now. Looks like I'm still the biggest fool there ever is.